Scared that I've been given too much to do,
Scared that I'm gonna let people down,
Scared my mental health can't handle things.
I love people for wanting to include me,
But now I'm worried that I'll fail.
So worry returns to haunt,
Thoughts of rivulets of searing red,
Running from flesh to drip into oblivion...
Too much to think of,
Too much to savour,
Too much to hold and let slip away.
Hands that won't hold.
Legs that won't move.
A racing pounding heart,
Pain as movement is tried.
Searing pain when trying to stand.
Yet
Blood pressure "normal"
Blood O2 level "fine"
Pulse "Racing"
Breath sounds "okay"
I'M NOT IMAGINING THE PAIN!!!
It's there and it bloody hurts.
I'm scared
Will no-one listen?
Will no-one believe me?
I'm scared...
• All poems written by J R A Gigney unless stated.
Location:Green Trees Ave,,United Kingdom
I strongly advise you to get a referral to the PAIN CLINIC at Broomfield Hospital. They are BRILLIANT and they WILL take your pain seriously. You do NOT have to have a specific ailment to be in pain. Quite a lot of people just have pain... and they have as much right to be out of pain as someone with, say toothache, or the pain of arthritis. This department may hold clinics in your local hospital. Do NOT let your GP get away with it... make sure you get that referral!
ReplyDeleteL&K,
Auntie Gee-knows-what-she's-talking-about...