A Philosophical Moment(?)

Good memories are a wonderful thing.
They're as beautiful as butterflies,
Or the iridescent colours of a rainbow.

Good memories are a comfort.
They enclose and surround us,
Like a soft, fluffy jumper,
Or a blanket wrapped around us.

Good memories can set you free.
They allow you to live,
To move forward.
Save them and share them,
For they create your legacy...


• Thanks for the inspiration, Gabriella xxx
• Dedicated to all.
• All poems written by J R A Gigney unless stated.

Ooh! I've set a goal!

Morphine update

24 November 2011

After last weeks flippy floppy business alternating doses day by day I've decided to stick to the single dose method. So 70mg per day for the next two weeks.

Morphine is strange stuff. As my friend Ginks (a pseudonym) told me it creates the same symptoms coming off as when going on. The time release stuff has the effect of making you slightly paranoid, jittery etc. and when pain starts to get through the dosage then it means your body needs more because it's got too used to the dose.

So I'm 8 weeks or so in. Still up and down for the first few days after reduction, but still going. Getting off of this drug is my goal now and it's achievable!!! :-D

I'm finding pain I didn't know about but that's strangely reassuring after feeling virtually no pain at all!

Onwards to victory!


• All poems written by J R A Gigney unless stated.

I'm sure it's got me!

Morphine Reduction
Update 17 November 2011

Still feeling dizzy and confused. I feel like I'm losing the use of my left arm and leg.

Playing games to take my mind off the pain and confusion. Even the dizziness subsides a little when I concentrate on something like that.

Very tearful too.

My left arm is bloody painful... My left hand is losing grip all the time...

The ulcer on my left big toe is back with a vengeance, and I'm stuck I'm the Village of the Dead / Damned / Doomed!

Trying to stay positive but you can tell it's difficult!

♥ ♥ ♥



• All poems written by J R A Gigney unless stated.

Morphine ain't what ot used to be

Morphine Reduction
14 November 2011

Made a mistake with me meds.

I feel so confused at times. Feeling sick and tired.

I guess I'd better go with it.

Oh and the dreams... All nightmares, nasty, visceral, frightening...

Not a happy bunny :(


• All poems written by J R A Gigney unless stated.

Medical Bulletin of the Non-Royal type

Morphine Reduction
Update: 8 November 2011:

Ugh!

My body feels like its been pummelled by the worlds worse masseur...

So I've dropped another 10mg. Not been feeling to great anyway but the jitters came in about an hour after taking the lower dose... Luckily just when I was sitting in the GP surgery waiting for the doctor. So now I'm allowed to alternate dosage to give my body a happier time. So 70mg in total today, 80mg tomorrow and 70mg on Thursday again. This will go for two weeks then I guess that 70 mg / 60 mg will alternate for the next two.

But ugh!

Onwards and sideways at the moment lol

Love you all ♥



• All poems written by J R A Gigney unless stated.